I’m thinking tonight about my future. Thinking about what can lie ahead, about my past and just how things could have turned out differently.

See, in the past, I have always chosen the thing that seemed to be right because it will get me out of “predicaments” the fastest. I went into insurance for the money, went with the opportunities because of the money. Honestly, I had cash, and I learned to live with myself and my choice... mostly.

There always was that nagging feeling that I wasn’t doing anything with my life and nothing was satisfying. I had a prolonged bitter taste after the sweetness left.

This time it’s scary, just like all the times before. But this time I think I’m going to do what’s hard. It may ruin me financially, but I believe it’s going to pay off this time.

I’m a creative. That’s where my strength lies. That’s what made me an excellent salesman and also why I can never be a great salesman. This time I’m going to run down the path instead of detouring to the field full of flowers that are beautiful in the short-term but kill me with hay fever in the long.

If you pray, pray for me. I’m going to need it.